Almost Gone

It’s never as easy anyone thinks. You can read all the literature you want about withdrawal and try to anticipate the worst; but at the end of the day, there’s really nothing you can do except go through it and try not to let it get the best of you. For about three years, I let alcohol and pills control my life. It might have even been longer than that, but the worst of my addiction was from 2009 to 2012. I had always drank more than I should but for some reason, things got worse when I started taking Xanax to help me sleep.

I had (and thankfully still have) a family that would have done anything for me. I must have done something right in a former life to deserve them, because lord knows I treated them as poorly as I could during my addiction. If they could have absorbed the physical and emotional pain of detox, they would have; but, alas, this was something I had to go through on my own. The first time I tried to quit drinking and pills, I just tried to go cold turkey. I lasted about three days—it really would have been funny if it wasn’t so sad.

I then tried going to an outpatient facility because I didn’t want to be away from job and my family for so long. I gave outpatient detox my level best, but the pain and sickness were just too much for me to take without someone to help me round-the-clock. I relapsed after about eleven days and had to once again face the withering disappointment of my wife and children. After literally contemplating suicide, I realized I had no choice but to try inpatient drug and alcohol detox. Besides proposing to my wife, I can honestly say that this is the smartest decision I’ve ever made.

At first I was reluctant to even try and attempt inpatient detox. I didn’t want to leave my family, but I knew that I was only hurting them in the state that I was in. Drugs and alcohol had taken over every aspect of my life and I had to do everything I could to get it back. My first three days there, I just wanted to sleep through the pain, but I just couldn’t. With the help of my doctors and nurses (to whom I will always be in debt), I got through it and started to feel better after about week.

The pride and energy that I got from inpatient detox prompted me to pursue residential rehab. I never thought that I could ever feel normal again, but my recovery has become one of the most important aspects of my life and I’m determined to preserve it. For those who think there is no going back, I can honestly say that the right alcohol and drug detox program can change your life for the better. I’m just grateful that I held on long enough to see that for myself. 

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Detox should never be attempted in your home or without medical supervision at a licensed detox treatment facility. For your safety we do not recommend any rapid or ultra rapid detox centers.